Putting on Weight!

I never had a perfect zero figure but that hardly mattered; I was happy the way I was. After the accident, the two things that I miss the most are my old dresses and my old self. 

Previously, I was a carefree girl with sparkling eyes, who was never scared. But lately, the later part has become more prevalent. Moreover, I have gained weight. I can no longer touch the beautiful dresses in my cupboard. Every morning as I prepare myself for my tuition or some other appointments, I face these sudden bouts of frustrations and self loathing.

Putting on weight has affected me more deeply than I ever expected; it has crushed my most priced self confidence. Sometimes, when I feel drawn to someone, the questions “What if he snaps the conversation after finding out I am fat?” “What if my heart gets broken in the way?” cloud my mind and overwhelm me.
Only yesterday, I remember telling my friend “It is better to be committed to my blog than be committed to a boy; at least my blog won’t fail me!”