How do I face failure?

Recently I have started working in a NGO that paves a way for a better future of the orphans and the kids in the shelter homes. I have always loved teaching; it is something that I have been doing forever; it is my ray of hope during the bleak months of work pressure.

But that is not enough for me. I wanted to do something creative, something more than teaching. So I decided to apply for the mentor post. Between the huge load pressure of the upcoming SAT and fulfilling my dreams of going abroad, I gave it a fair try.

However, at the last minute I got to know that I have not been given the post. I felt defeated and sad. I was confident that I will get the post.

I never had a smooth life. I have seen people fulfilling their dreams without even trying hard for it, but my life has appraised, during every experience, my perseverance and courage.

I don't know why but this failure has affected me more than any other. This rejection was not only me not getting the mentor post but also a powerful slap on my skills as a teacher.

I am having a foreboding feeling that I have failed myself.

This huge burden of worthlessness has infiltrated each and every corner of my heart; since then it is ruthlessly playing with my peace of mind.

And I am rendered helpless by its merciless cruelty.